it's been way too long since i last wrote.

to think that you'll be here... actually here looking at me... any day now....

that absolutely astounds me.

somehow, as i sit looking at my bassinet and changing table and baby clothes and stuffed toys

somehow...

it's still not completely real. because you are the smallest huge thing ever.

there's so much to write about the last few months. so much craziness. so much loveliness.

things to remember:
i craved salt and vinegar potato chips, grilled cheese, fruit, and occasionally... taco bell.
you preferred to sleep on my left side. it hurt after a while.
you once had your foot on top of my ribs for 3 days. remind me to ask you why.
i think i vomited more in my 9 month pregnancy than i did in 4 years of college.
my favorite thing in the world is hearing your heartbeat when i go to the doctor.
lenore loves to sleep on you right now.
all of the family thinks you are a boy. all of my coworkers think you are a girl.
i sing to you in the car.
your father sometimes lays next to my belly and talks to you.
your grandmother and i had a hell of a time putting your bassinet together.

i know there's more to remember. i know there's lots i'll forget. i'm so excited and terrified at the same time. i know that i've prepared myself as much as i can. sadly, i've learned there's just not a whole lot i can do.

we're putting another bid in on a house... i hope it becomes a home for our family.

i hope for a whole lot of things.